Would I have been the one who hated you, who stood in the crowds and yelled?
Would I have been the one to judge you, to claim your ungodliness in the midst of your perfection?
Would I have been the one to disgrace you, to invite you to my home in an attempt to prove you wrong?
I want to see the depths of my unworthiness,
the grandeur of my sin,
I want to know it well and never forget it,
so that when I remember your mercy towards me
I will not take it lightly
So that when I think of the way you have redeemed me,
I will not be able to glance at another and have a single condemning thought
You said that you hate six things,
and I have done every one of them
I’ve been consumed by my arrogance,
seen myself as more important
I’ve been a part of a culture that consumes at the expense of others,
I’ve made my plans and drawn out my days, ignoring your truth and existence
I’ve spent years hurrying to my own depravity, running to a relationship
that perpetually produced brokenness and separation from you
I’ve breathed out lies, failed to speak truth, allowed rumors to thrive
I’ve been the cause of discord, hosted hostility in my heart and opposition in my words
Oh, how I need you
Every hour, every minute, I need you
The notion that I am not enough, will never be enough, will always come up short
is the most freeing conviction
In my desperation and weakness, your grace is sufficient
The concept that I could never do enough, achieve enough, work enough
is the liberation my soul desires
You have already finished everything I have yet to start,
you are the beginning, the end, and the most important thing in between
Oh, my soul is satisfied and wanting more at the same time
Do not let my distracted mind forget the crimson blood you shed for me,
Overwhelm my quickness to settle in the temporary with a vivid vision of eternity
Although I have yet to carve idols out of wood and stone,
I’ve set my eyes on things a part from you
This is an endless plea from my mouth,
let me see your goodness and not stray from it
I remember the wormwood and the gall,
and then I look to see your face
In your truth I am free from a life of bitterness,
In your love, you’ve eradicated my transgressions,
redefined my future, and justified my presence
Each new morning, I am met with your mercy
and it will carry me through every day
Silence is unwelcome here, in the light of your grace
Let this be a declaration of my hope in you,
let my words saturate the emptiness of life a part from you
let this be an invitation, like the one you’ve given to me
for any soul that is aching, to finally be redeemed
Accepting This 