means

maybe if i were less terrified i’d be more inspired
maybe if i were less anxious i’d know more peace
maybe if i knew how to breathe i’d have more breath
maybe if i would accept the realities i’d stop dreaming

but i don’t want to be numb
i don’t want to be passionless
i don’t want to be overwhelmed
because numbness means i’ve lost
passionless means i’m gone
overwhelmed means
means
means
means
that i will only ever
repeat
repeat
repeat
my failures
my indecencies
my worries

get out
of my mind
get out
forever this time